audit has changed me to a time bomb.
yes, i am unpredictable but not to the extend that i can explode. i don't always get mad, i always believe people deserve a second chance no matter how big their mistakes were. but not to myself.
"u are such a loser. big double capital loser. u don't deserve a second chance. u are totally unforgivable. ur mistakes were stupid, and so do you. u should loathe yourself. u are selfish. in denial. u don't even deserve to live a human being when you always think of yourself."
those words up above, i wanted to scream to myself.
but not even once i think that its others fault. its always me. only me.
apparently, not everyone seems to understand what i feel. no one. and i should keep silent. like i always do.
but then again, audit has changed me. i don't even know myself. i don't even like myself anymore.
and that time-bomb has explode but everyone still thinks that it could have stopped before the last tick.
no, not all time-bomb were destined to stop in the middle. time-bomb does what time-bomb does.