Monday, December 31, 2012

review and revise


Resolusi 2012. Mari review satu persatu.

1. Finishing school

Note : Barely missed it. Thank God i made it at last, with very much struggle. One of the most unforgettable moment. 

2. Get a work

Note : Done. Still early to say if its my dream job or not. Nevertheless, i am happy with what i have earned. Hope for many more happiness to come later.

3. Grab a passport

Note : This have yet to be completed, as of now. Had no motivation neither time to run for one. Later, maybe later.


So, as 2012 has closed its book, lets open a new book. And do a revise 2013 resolution.

1. Grab a passport. Brought forward, no more words.

2. Get a life. I mean, a work-life balance. 

3. Get married. K Bye.


p/s : ignore #3. 10-11-12 will never come back. so do my dream wed-day. sobs. 

Friday, December 14, 2012

pending

list to blog :

#1 : convocation day : 5 seconds of fame

#2 : bridging programme : 2 month in heaven, and hell

#3 : new home. new life. new future plan.

#4 : my best friend's engagement

#5 : where does all the time gone?


apparently, #5 is the content of #1 to #4, thats all can be updated for now.

till we meet again. yada yada yada.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

istanbul jangan kau datang

I always do a movie review whenever i watched something worth to be talked about. And Istanbul aku datang has that thing.

But i guess its not something worth to talk about. It is more to something we should think about.

And yes, i just finished watching the movie. Not in cinema, coz illegal downloading gave me everything that time and space couldn't, plus i don't have a boyfriend that i could bring to the cinema. Bahah.

Speaking of which, the kind of sweet cutie cheesy lovey dovey stuff being stuffed in the movie are soooooo gonna likeable, by boyfriend-girlfriend. That is why i've heard of too many positive feedback about the movie. Couldn't agree more, who does not want a love-hate relationship as harris-dian do.

But moving on to the story-line, it had me on thought. Deep thought. I stunned. It makes me wonder, does malaysian has really changed, or am i too conservative? Am i living in a parallel universe? Where do i live actually?

Apparently, not in Istanbul. Where a couple is free to hug and kiss. To live together and enjoy forever.

But then i thought, its our way of living now, despite where we are. Despite who we are.

Its a shame. How the story reflects today's generation. Or should i say, malay generation? I agreed, a movie should be sincere, but too sincere puts a high risk. What if the audiences think it is okay to do it because the movie does so? What if the audiences feel proud to do it just because it is the trend? What if, what shouldn't be done becomes what should be doing? When the negative becomes positive just because so many people accepting it. When we lose too much because we chase too far. When we left out the importants just to be upgraded.

Do u really want to see that happened? In our culture?

Call me conservative, but i still think hugs and kisses are for husband. Not boyfriend.

Yes, i narrowed down the scope to just hugs and kisses, where in reality, it is beyond those things. You know, right?

Dont blame the movie. Its just us. Or maybe its just me who think too complicatedly. Well, i couldn't help it.

Nevertheless, it was fun watching that movie. Yeah, that walking on cloud 9 feelings. That oh-how-best-it-would-be-to-have-a-soulmate-like-harris. Those poetic quotes.

Apabila dua jiwa sudah sebati, memang susah nak dipisahkan.

I love how Lisa's character being portrayed as someone who is cheerful, full of optimism, and trust easily. But then, the sadness frustrated brokenhearted feeling of betrayal really sting the heart. It shows, much. 

And that is the first time i watched Beto's on screen. Not bad. Simple, yet impacted. Now i know why everyone loves him, even he is not so good looking. 

Kadang kadang kita tak perlu beri peluang kedua bila kita boleh beri sekali sahaja peluang kepada orang lain. (sort of)

So true. Coz that second chance might be a waste. Coz that same mistake might be repeated. Coz some other person deserves it more. Coz we don't know the future, so just close our eyes and lets do some experiments.

Tests whether the hypothesis of 'if its not happy, it isn't the ending yet' is true or not.

Coz in the end, we all are gonna live happily ever after. 

Pfth.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Tun Siti Hasmah

Mendidik seorang perempuan umpama mendidik sebuah bangsa.

2minggu lepas, bergolotlah aku menuju ke istana budaya usai kelas di sunway. Pergolotan berhasil menemukan tiket menonton teater tun siti hasmah. Teater, antara aktiviti yang aku rindui. Nampak kan, jiwa seorang penghibur aku tidak terbatas kepada bidang nyanyian sahaja.

Tirai dibuka dengan babak sang ibu menghantar anak perempuannya ke kolej di singapura dengan penuh kesyahduan dan nasihat berlingkaran.

Ironinya, setelah sang ibu melangkah pergi, pelajar pelajar yang tadinya berkeliaran membawa buku terus menyusun langkah menari twist. Haha, tipical student's life. Belakang ibu bapa berpoya poya.

Pertemuan tun siti hasmah dengan tun mahathir menjurus selepasnya. Juga, tipical student's life. Cinta zaman belajar.

Hebat juga tun siti hasmah tika mudanya. Repeat paper tak sudah sudah. Disuruh belajar dia bersukan. Disuruh membaca buku dia menyanyi menari. Tipical student's life.

Bukti tun siti hasmah juga manusia biasa, seperti kita.

Yang membezakan beliau cumalah di sisi siapa beliau berganding. Ya, menjadi seorang isteri bukanlah mudah. Menjadi seorang isteri kepada insan terpenting negara, kepayahan yang tak mampu dikata apatah lagi di laksana.

Tun siti hasmah membuktikan sebaliknya. Ketenangan dan ketabahan beliau tiada siapa mampu menyangkalnya.

Jasa beliau bukan hanya menjadi tulang belakang menyokong suami, malah juga menabur bakti dari hasil keringat beliau sendiri dalam misi kemanusiaan.

Wirawati malaysia, yang genuin.

Ok, enough with the storyline. Lets move on to the actors and actresses.

Lisa surihani was beautiful. Tapi, bergandingan dengan hero malaya membuatkan beliau invisible di mata aku. Maaflah lisa, aku cuma memandang lelaki kacak. Esma daniel was a perfect doppelganger of tun M. I mean, through the intonation and the body languange. Sebagaimana p ramlee ada musly ramlee, begitulah juga tun M dan esma daniel. Eja was okay. Calm and cool, setenang tun siti hasmah. Daaaannn.....

Nazim othman sangat handsome! Perfectly fit the image of tall, dark, and handsome, malay version.

Bai.

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Sunday, November 11, 2012

my wedding day. i don't have groom

two years ago (i think), i checked the calendar, scrolled down randomly, and found an amazing date.

10.11.12.
Saturday.
It's my birthday.

and i marked that date. hoping to get married, or at least, being engaged, or at the very least, found the other half of my heart, at that very amazing date.

believe me, it happens. the miracle happens! there is magic out there, people!


the proposal
the candles
the invitation card
the wedding gown(s)
the cupcakes 
the photo-compilation


completed with the playlist of wedding song, as the background music


and most importantly,


the bride and the wedding planners

the groom is missing. for the moment.



well, at least, my wish to get married on 10-11-12 did come true. i am the happiest bride in the world, even without a groom. because god blesses me with lovely friends. 


thank you, for all wishes, for all love, and for each and every smile you guys have pasted on my face. i am most appreciated and touched. 

love,
MRS. Farrakaka


p/s : nevertheless, i've had a nicest simplest sweetest and most beautiful (first) wedding ever, in 23. looking forward to the second wedding of mine. 

Saturday, November 10, 2012

10-11-12

Once in a lifetime.

Happy birthday, farah.

Too bad i failed the mission impossible. Nevertheless, thank u Allah for i am still breathing till now.

Goodbye, 10-11-12. U are such an amazing date. Sorry that i have to give up on u just like that.

p/s : and i will always love november

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Friday, November 9, 2012

pre


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Thursday, November 8, 2012

november datang lagi

Yeah. Its november. I know its too late, but still, welcome november.

First entry of november and i have nothing to story. Well, actually there's a lot, but too many things to say always ended me up with nothing to speak.

Again, and only, welcome november.

Always my favourite month. Better be good.

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Tuesday, October 30, 2012

aku tanpa suara

Aku ini tidak punya suara
Jiwa ada
Bibir malah ingin sekali meluah rasa
Namun hanya nafas berat terhela
Kosong...

Jiwa ada tapi tidak berguna
Bisukanlah saja
Biar tidak terseksa hati
Biar tidak terdera minda

Aku ini tidak punya suara
Andai bulan bisa berbicara
Jikalau sang bintang mampu berkata kata
Rela aku serah jiwa
Tuturkanlah dari hati
Mengganti diri
Aku yang tiada punya suara

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Sunday, October 28, 2012

jauh

Berlari aku ke hujung dunia
Tidak juga kelihatan bayangmu
Merangkak aku ke lohong sempit
Masih tidak kutemu kamu

Jauh
Masih jauh jarak kita
Sekecil dunia belum juga bisa berjumpa
Redha aku
Tiada ketika jaga
Aku cari di dalam mimpi
Mungkin bukan di alam nyata
Harapku kelak di sebelah sana

Menanti setia
Sampai satu masa itu tiba

P/s : sepatutnya study untuk exam, mood berpuitis datang tiba tiba pula. Ah, celaka. Bagai tiada masa lainnya.

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Saturday, October 20, 2012

to educate is to edify with delicate

Satu benda yang sangat sangat jauh berbeza, antara zaman aku dulu, dan zaman adik adik aku kini, ialah pendekatan pendidikan. Dulu, kita sebagai murid dengan rela hati menerima segala jenis perlakuan dan pendekatan yang cikgu cikgu gunakan. Kalau cikgu suka pegang rotan, bersedialah menerima sebatan. Kalau cikgu gemar bawak pembaris kayu panjang semeter, bersedialah menghulur tapak tangan. Kalau dapat cikgu yang jenis malas nak pegang apa apa, jangan rasa selamat, mungkin cubitan ketam beliau lebih berbisa.

Tapi, cikgu sekarang? Jenis merokok. Bawak bekal lighter. Hah, bersedialah kau kena bakar.

Dahsyat cikgu sekarang. A few days, months, or maybe years ago, whenever there were lots of complaints from parents on kids been beaten in school by teachers, i would say, kids nowadays are such a sissy. And parents loved to raise spoiled brats. I was on the teachers side in that case. But still, i dont blame the society for the changing of environment.

But listening to my mom's story of what happened to my bro, it got me burned.

1. Merampas telefon bimbit adalah okay. And i blamed my brother for that.

2. Menuduh tanpa usul periksa adalah tidak okay. There are a lot more pupils that were angry with you, of what has happened, but attacking only one or two person without evidence or investigation, that should be called a fitnah.

3. Menyalakan lighter dan mencucuh ke bibir anak murid, itu adalah sangat sangat tidak okay (i refrain myself from using any more inappropriate words). Educating needs to be done in a proper manner, not threatening them, with lighter's on. That is beyond irrational, sorry to say.
 
Should a teacher (an ustaz, to be specific) act like that?

I admit, my brother is not one of good student. Probably one of the naughtiest or worst student. But one thing i do believe is, we, 5 siblings, are never losing respect to someone older, because most of the time, we never speak out what we're thinking, or even what we're wishing, even to our parents. But if you do believe that he is the one that has insulted you, please do so, but with proofs.

Not with lighters.

Hitting to educate is okay, but bare in mind, always use proper manner.
 
p/s: maybe this personal thought is being biased, but putting forward the thoughts of other people and witnesses, they are also in no side of you. I am confident in this, if i am not, i wouldnt even dare to post this in public.
 
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Saturday, October 6, 2012

antara laut dan darat, serta cinta

I was born as a house-person. i rarely go out, i hate adventures, and i don't do sports. but a week in lumut had open up my eyes, and mind. there's a lot of great things Allah has prepared for us to explore, and be grateful for all His wonderful creations.

All that happened during my one week stay in Lumut were something I will never forget. well, i won't say that everything was perfect. they've got tiring moment, hateful moment and feel-like-dying moment, a lot, but luckily, i'm a kind of person who was able to find sweetness in bitterness, thus, i managed to enjoy all those difficulties. and i'm grateful for that.

Lets move on to the experiences. we arrived Lumut on saturday afternoon. we first welcomed by the warm hands of the instructors, be divided into 4 watches (a small group of 13-14 people each) and shoot, we took the first fresh picture together. motif di sebalik gambar? i'll tell you later.

The first day ended without difficulties, just an awkward ice-breaking session, and we've been released to bed early (to prepare for the worst tomorrow, of course). being in new place, i had to struggle to sleep, turned out i slept only for 2-3 hours that night and i regretted that because the next day, the real journey of hardship began. are you ready for the real adventure? well, i am.

1. Kayaking expedition

The next day started with a fresh morning jog. up and down the hills. menghirup udara nyaman, bertemankan kicauan burung dan bermandi peluh di pagi hari. tika ini, kesusahan mula terasa. but this was just a piece of what has awaited us up front.

Later that morn, we learned some rope-tying and setting up the tent techniques, and then, here we go, the kayaks were waiting for us. it was not my first experience with kayak - i had my own 'kayak-bodoh-bodoh' session around Tasik Shah Alam before, but being forced to capsize during training got my nerves. (capsize : menterbalikkan diri anda bersama kayak di dalam air). i drank a lot of salt water, yikes!

Training session ended, we were told that our first expedition will start straight away after lunch. WHAT? berkayak merentas selat, with ships and boats crossing along, and waves moving up and downs, with just a few hours of training? whew, i should have foreseen this.

But challenge accepted. ekspedisi bermula dengan sesi berkayak ke Teluk Sekadeh, where we camped there for a night, to prepare for the real expedition the next day. yeah, OBS  Teluk Sekadeh was just 0.5% of the real expedition that we should accomplished.

The real expedition was kayaking around Pulau Pangkor. baru beberapa meter berkayak dari Sekadeh, hujan pun turun dengan lebatnya, and we were forced to turn back. when the weather turned nice, we started our expedition again, and in the end, we managed to complete our mission impossible #1, in around 8++ hours time (minus lunch break).
 
8 jam bersila dalam kayak, 8 jam terumbang ambing di atas lautan, 8 jam berkayak tanpa henti, 8 jam terolang aling melawan ombak, 8 jam yang penuh mencabar. i've tasted them all, and worse, i've got severe sunburn. but it was all worth, when we arrived OBS safely. thanx to my partner also, our momentum joined together and created a great teamwork.
 
Kayak, don't let me see you for the next few years. i've had enough. adios.
 
2. Trekking expedition
 
From across the sea, we went up the hills. do not dare to speak of break. there's no break. fullstop. before we headed for the next campsite (again), we learned how to read compass and map. or in other word, orienteering. and later that afternoon, we walked hands-in-hands, singing joyfully, to Sri Batik campsite. okay, that's a bluff. no hands-in-hands, no singing. just a heavy backpack, and tired faces.
 
The night in Sri Batik was quite relaxing, despite having a double awareness to leeches. we've enjoyed our moment with sharing session, quizzes, hearing tests, and not to be forgotten, heart-to-heart talk. and surprisingly, our instructor was quite an open-minded person.
 
At this point, we started to get closer. geng Korbu dah mula membuka rahsia, bertukar cerita, dan rasa seperti keluarga. malam melabuhkan tirai dengan senyum dan gelak tawa.
 
But when rain started to pour heavily in dawn, we started to feel uneasy. even the tent flooded, and our backpack drenched. but we've got no choice, after the rain stopped pouring, we started off our trekking.
 
There were basically 3 peaks we need to track, with full loaded backpack, we move forward with the help of compass, map and knife. and the hardest part besides the mudslide was fighting with leeches. but i do not have time to care, just accepting the kiss some of them managed to give me. hey, at least, i've got some lovebites, the first ever in my life.
 
Given the opportunity to become closer with mother nature, it was something i will cherish forever. mission impossible #2 ended with some difficulties, but it made me realize that i prefer kayaking than trekking. Broga, you now can be outlisted from my incomplete mission.
 
3. Whaling expedition
 
Whaling, originally from the word whale, tapi tak bermaksud aktiviti ini memerlukan seekor paus untuk ditunggangi atau yang sewaktu dengannya. it came from the whale-hunting activity, where once upon a time, the hunters at that time use boat, sails, and spears to hunt the whale, with the help of wind, and tides.
 
Of course, when there is no wind, we need to row, for the whaler (the name of the boat) to move forward. its just the same as kayak, bezanya cuma whaler memerlukan kekuatan sepasukan, while kayak needs only a couple. romantik gitu.
 
The bigger the boat is, the more complicated it gets to handle it. that was what we feel with whaler. there are 3 types of sails need to be controlled in the whaler, and a lot of rope-tying and rowing took place. but the journey to go to Pulau Rumbia was more relaxing, thanks to the wind.
 
We need no rowing, and just enjoying the moment in the boat, having a sharing and singing session. feels like heaven. dan aku tak kisah memperdengarkan suara sumbang aku kepada mereka. harap mereka tak kisah mendengarnya juga.
 
Arriving Pulau Rumbia, the feeling gets more heavenly. hey, it felt like vacation. the island was beautiful. the water was clear, and the weather was nice. it was the best camping (yes, camping again, not surprised anymore) of all, despite having no proper toilets.
 
We've had a nice night at Rumbia, saving our energy for the journey back to OBS the next day, dan tiada siapa tahu, kami yang relax, steady dan playful boleh dirasuk hantu keesokan harinya.
 
Yeah, the next day filled with energy, spirit and fire. we rowed all the time, and yeay! we managed to arrive first. everyone was so proud of themselves. and i loved the team. mission impossible #3, accomplished! 
 
 
That night was actually the very last night in Lumut. and we had a bbq night, which was the best part. not only because of each and every expedition has been completed without much difficulties, but because something happened. i fell in love.
 
Okay, just kidding. just kidding.
 
That night we need to perform, and of course, singing was the easiest. well, i've never liked malam kebudayaan ever, so the presentation, i can say, just so-so. but the food, was awesome. it seems like we've had enough sardines and chicken curry during camping, so we enjoyed the food much.
 
The night didn't end just like that. malam masih muda, maka kami memutuskan untuk clubbing. bertemankan bayu laut dan bunyi ombak, berbumbungkan bulan dan bintang, medley lagu-lagu disumbangkan sambil diiringi petikan gitar akustik dari instructor pelatih yang kacak. eh?
 
And it was a wonderful night. hati berbunga, jelingan mata, dan rasa yang istimewa. okay, sila bagi penampar kepada aku sekarang.
 
Well, the last night ended sweetly and wrapped up beautifully, making all the memories worth remembering. the goodbye was the hardest, full of mixed feelings, between happy (that the training has ended) and sad (maybe for me only). a lot of things we've learnt there, and for me, i've gotten to know myself better, and i was proud of myself.
 
Thanx to geng Korbu, En Ramlan the instructor, the friends, the team, the partner, the sea, the sun, the wind, and the mother nature. Thank you Allah, for creating such a wonderful earth i've gotten to explore.
 
 
the fresh faces before the sunburn. well, good job lumut, now i'm afraid of mirrors.
 
 
geng Korbu, after skin transformation
 
 
A piece of advice from me, if you cannot avoid it, let's just enjoy it. that is how i survived, till the end.
 
 
p/s : cintaku tertinggal di lumut. (^,^)

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

i survived


Truthfully, i just went back from woods/islands. Still in the process of adapting in civilization, and not intended to write an essay of my experiences in lumut.

Maybe next entry, coz there's a lot of good memories i gained and feel obliged to share them here. For now, let's make a grateful list.

Yes, i am much grateful and thankful to Allah past week. There's a lot of fun things happened, happiness overload, flowery feelings and besides surviving the outward bound programme, i also survived in saving my degree level.

Indeed, third time brings me luck.

And i just started a new life, being a participant of PPA, a student of sunway, a temporary resident of monash, a future employee of ey, and a future candidate of acca. Hopefully, everything went well and smooth. And hopefully, i will survive throughout these journey of life.

Nothing is impossible, that is what i've learnt from obs, and i will hold into it till the end.

Till then, lets just move along.

Oh, meet my new (temporary) home, sunway monash residence. Classy much, right.
 

 
 
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Saturday, September 22, 2012

answer me 1997 (part 2)

I admit, when i love something, i obsessed much. to the extend that i may do the craziest thing i can imagine.

My obsession towards this drama; lets say, i watch raw - read recaps - watch subbed version.

That is how obsessed i can get. now, lets continue with the narrations for the rest of the episodes.

Episode 9 : The thread of fate

They say that people are born with a red string that they can’t see, tied to their pinky fingers, and the end is tied to the one you’re fated to be with. But the thread is twisted this way and that, making it hard to find the other end.

The tangles created by everyone’s threads. If I continue to untangle everything, I, too will end up meeting the person I am fated to be with. If a red thread really does exist in fate, who is at the end of my red thread?
Yoon Yoon Jae

Episode 10 : The reason i like you

The reason I like you? Because you’re that person. Because you’re you. Is there another reason besides that one? I’d rather know the reason if there was one. Then I could find a way to not like you. If I can’t avoid it, then there’s only one thing I want: to remain by your side, unchanged, for long time. For love that′s breaking our hearts.
Kang Jun Hee

Episode 11 : The definition of relationship

We expect different things, look towards different directions, and dream of different dreams. The things that happen between a man and a woman are full of continuous love and war. We turn our backs, and then console each other. We fight and make up. We give each other pain and hugs. A relationship like a manic-depressive patient who can’t make up his mind. But the hardest thing about the relationship between a man and a woman is the timing—if the love doesn’t begin at the same time, it’s unlikely to ever begin at all.

Then, there is one other kind that is more annoying. The one relationship you can’t ever shake, no matter how sick and tired you get, that leads to a lifetime of tears: Family.
Yoon Yoon Jae

Episode 12 : The meaning of a hand

The reason why the teenage years are a stressful period is because we don’t know the answers yet. What I really want. Who really loves me. Who I really love.  The time of life when I tumble here and there, searching for the answers. And then in the end, the moment when I figure out the answers to everything like a miracle… we had already become adults, and been doing big and small things.
Sung Shi Won

Episode 13 : Next time... No, now.

There is no other desperate time than now. It’s because ‘later’ might never come. To talk about a ‘Maybe next time’ instead of the ‘Now’ that’s right in front of us, our lives aren’t that long.

If you give up on now because of laziness or a lack of courage, there is no hope of another opportunity. If you love now, the best timing is right now. Approach it before it’s too late. And confess right now, because you don’t know what will happen later. The next opportunity may never come.
Yoon Yoon Jae

Episode 14 : The heart is what makes you love

Liking someone is not a matter of choice. It’s something the heart makes you do.

You just don’t know who in life is loving you. You just don’t know.
Kang Jun Hee
 
Episode 15 : While you were in love
 
But liking someone isn’t something that you can control like a light switch, turning it on and off. Once it’s on, it does’t turn off.
Yoon Yoon Jae
 
Episode 16 : The reason why first loves don't come true
 
Even if you bring a lion into a beautiful meadow, that doesn’t mean he’ll give up meat and start eating carrots. No matter what the surroundings are, a lion is a lion, and a rabbit is a rabbit.
Yoon Yoon Jae
 
Make enough money and just as many memories. There’s nothing worth more than memories.
Sung Do Il
 
First love. The reason why first love is so beautiful isn’t because first love itself is beautiful. During that time, we had our youth - which wasn’t vicious, me - who was overly innocent, and you - who was uncontrollably passionate. And… because we already knew that we would never be able to go back to our youthful, innocent, and passionate times.
 
First love is thoughtless. If you don’t calculate and just throw your innocence and passion at it, it’ll end up failing. But that’s why it’s dramatic. The thoughtless stories, mixed with the emotions and warmth that can never be retrieved again. That why first love is my life’s most dramatic story. Therefore, failure is even okay. Instead of a happy ending, a sad ending remains in the memory longer. So it’s okay to leave even just one sad ending of a failed first love in one small portion of my life.
 
First love is a season. When it passes, it’s gone. Now it’s time to greet the new season and give it a chance for a new romance. Even though we’ll never experience the warmth and innocence from a first love, we have to wait for the romance of an adult, after being matured from the pain of first love.
 
The person who waits can only dream of love.
 
And the person, who waits, will miraculously recognize the love that comes one more time.
 
When romance ends, life takes over. Innocence gets dirtied, passion dies out, and youth starts getting old. So the innocent period of first love wears out and becomes a past event. That’s why it seems like first love never comes true. No one talks about the success of a first love.
Yoon Yoon Jae
 
 
credit : dramabeans & enewsworld
 
 
Yes, the drama has ended. flawlessly.
 
And now i can have a normal life back again.
 
I wish.
 
 
p/s : i will be away, for some time. and will start a life. hopefully, i will make it through. can't wait to put myself back in the society. daa...

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

scumbag brain

me suddenly thinking of one incident, that happens not so long ago. that cracks me up, by myself.
 
 
me, and two of my friends, D and F, were walking to D's car at the parking lot, when suddenly we realized, D didn't lock her car the whole hours we were away.
 
 
D : i knew it! how can i be so careless.
 
me : sokay. lets get out of here. its dark, and creepy. (yes, parking lot is one of the creepiest place ever)
 
 
we went inside the car and suddenly...
 
 
F : wait! what is somebody happens to sneak in and stay still, in the...BOOT?
 
 
me and D turned to F who is sitting at the back. and we can't help having goosebumps. of course, we cursed slightly at F's words.
 
 
F : sokay. lets drive away. and when we reach a bumper, hit it hard so we can know if there is really 'anything' back in the boot.
 
 
and we cracked upon hearing that. F and her reckless thoughts...
 
but still, we hit the bumper hard while staying silent to hear if any sound produces. luckily, nothing happened. its just us, and our silly imagination.
 
 
yes, sometimes, we cant help but think stupidly. everyone does.
 

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

life is a drama

Who doesn't love dramas? I've watched (and still watching) tonnes of dramas in my life. And being an analyst (or i thought i am), there are few types of drama you would caught on screen.

There are dramas that started with a good vibe. Well, first impression is good. They'll keep us wanting more, but slowly, they'll turn sour in the middle. And leave us cursing through the end.

There are dramas that started in slow pace. You would find it boring at first. But somehow, the mood twisted in time, and our hearts changed. And slowly, leave us smiling through the end.

There are dramas that we were really anticipating. Even before the airing. They'll keep us waiting eagerly for the start, but when they really came out, the results are not up to our expectations. And leave us a frustrated heart.

There are dramas that we don't really give a damn. Even when everyone in town talked about it, even when others really loved it, we teases, saying they're not our genre. But when we happened to stuck with them anyway, love struck, and we have to admit, they are good.

There are dramas that keep on twisting and tangling, giving us confusion and hearts fluttering.

Yet, there are also dramas that are straight forward. From the beginning, each plot is foreseen, and run smooth as we expected.

And do you know, that there is a drama, called life?

Yes, life is a drama.

Sometimes it started well, but ended badly.

Sometimes it gives a storm in the beginning, but leaves a rainbow at the end.

Sometimes we get what we expected, others we will be disappointed.

Life can be twisted, or straight forward.

Either way, we are no one to decide.

We can't tell. No one can.

Yes, life is a drama.


Anticipate it.


p/s: i watched dramas in my life. I watched dramas in my drama. I watched dramas in drama?? Huh?? Inception??


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Saturday, September 8, 2012

answer me 1997 (part 1)

I've always loved quotes. the emotion, the poetic, the beautiful meaning, they always caught me off-guard. i love reading novels with good quotes. i love watching movies with good quotes. and sometimes, i do make my own quotes. i spread it all over my twitter, and i got too emotional whenever the quotes get retweeted.
 
feel like a boss. teehee.
 
but now, i wanna share with you, my current passion. the drama i've gotten too attached to, past few weeks. the drama, which blooms with quotes, that has received my love, unconditionally.
 
Reply 1997 (some says Answer Me 1997). and yes, it's korean.
 
it's actually a sitcom (because of the short airing time), revolves around a group of teenagers in the 90's. friendship, love, family, love illusion, journey to adulthood, life, they are all blended and mixed beautifully by the writer. yeah, full credit should be given to the writer who was able to write a perfect portrayal of life.
 
and at the end of each episode, the character narrates some beautiful sayings, which i have fallen into, and gonna share it here.  
 
 
Episode 1 : Eighteen
 
The age of 18, we fall in love easily, and worry too much about little things. the age of 18. the adults usually say at our age, we laugh at the simplest things. but at that time, we were serious. it was intense and harder than other adults.
Sung Shi Won
 
Episode 2 : Slowly changing
 
The age of 18. we were growing up, and therefore changing from each other. at the same time, we had to confront another growing pain, that of accepting others.
 
The law of maturity. a boy becomes a man, and a girl becomes a woman. but the problem is when a boy who grows into a man, and the girl is still a girl. when the timing is wrong…
Yoon Yoon Jae
 
 
Episode 3 : Things are not always what they seem.
 
A secret refers to something i don't know about others. As i find out what i've believed isn't the truth, secrets become even more secretive.
 
A person’s heart is unlimited. you can’t know how deep it is or where it ends. even though you fight and are ready to kill each other, you end up being affectionate as if nothing happened. even the most confident men can end up becoming idiots in front of the opposite sex.

Yes, the truth is uncomfortable. but if we don’t address the discomfort of the truth, we’ll have to live as the humans who believe something fake is actually real. we must embrace the uncomfortable truth as well. things aren’t always what they seem.
Sung Shi Won
 
Episode 4 : Fair play
 
When you like someone, the doors toward her appear in the side and the back. but if you don’t knock, they won’t open. if you stay still, you’ll never get what you want. now, there is no such thing as fair play.
Yoon Yoon Jae
 
Episode 5 : Life's counterattack
 
Life comes and attacks you when you least expect it. it might be sadness, or extreme fear. at that moment, what we can do is accept reality and admit we lost. we dont know how life will turn out. there is  no way we can avoid it. we just have to face it, and get hurt once in a while. but at times, life gives us presents that make our hearts flutter, and makes sure that when we experience pain, it exchanges with happiness.
Yoon Yoon Jae
 
Episode 6 : Love makes you do things you've never done before.
 
The easiest thing we can do for the person we love is to throw ourselves away. the strength to do things that aren’t in our nature—that’s love.
Yoon Yoon Jae
 
Episode 7 : Future dream
 
Future dreams are about reachable, nearby dreams—a career you can attain and make a living doing. who’ll take responsibility if you waste your life on an unattainable dream? that’s why a person has to be content with a close dream. if you chase after a dream that’s far away, your heart will hurt and your insides will burn. a futile passion only leaves heartache. that’s why they say life’s stupidest thing is a one-sided love. but just because everyone says one-sided love is doomed, you can’t give up before you even start, and worry about how you’ll eat and live. more important than what you can do is what you want to do. so let’s start with that. you only live once.
 
A person needs to be satisfied with a goal that is near them. aiming for something so far away is only greed and will cause so much pain. it’ll only end up as a scar in your heart. that’s why the stupidest thing you can do in the world is love one-sidedly. but the reason why that stupid one-sided love is worthy trying is because sometimes that passion creates miracles and sometimes it comes true after going around and around. it also offers chances to get close to that dream, even if that dream itself is impossible to achieve. 
Yoon Tae Woong
 
Episode 8 : D-Day
 
During WWII, to end this tiresome war, the Allied Forces attacked the German Forces. planned as a night attack, it was named D-Day. to prepare for this decisive D-Day, strategies must be perfect. you must know exactly where your enemies are. you must understand your enemies. you must be able to read your enemies' mind. you must not be careless, thinking you've prepared perfectly. on D-Day, there is only victory, or failure. my life’s first D-Day. November 18, 1998. i had prepare perfectly, but it ended in failure. the cause of defeat: reconnaissance failure.
Yoon Yoon Jae
 
 
 
Its only half of the drama and this post had already be this long. didnt planned to write much longer (well, its just a copy and paste though), so, i'll stop here. be right back, or in internet slang, brb.
 
 
p/s : i only posted out the narrating part, because i felt the most emotion during that part. oh i love this drama so much, couldn't help but to make it part of my farrakaka.
 

Monday, August 27, 2012

i'm-getting-old syndrome

i should admit, bila tiba hari raya je, memang dalam sungguh rasa yang menegaskan bahawa aku sudah tua. ya, bila tiba hari raya, bukan pada peralihan tahun tanggal 1 januari. birthday is an exception.
 
i am 23. not that old.
 
tahu kenapa aku terasa sangat tua bila tiba hari raya? statistik menunjukkan kutipan duit raya semakin tahun semakin berkurang. ya, aku masih lagi layak menerima duit raya memandangkan aku masih belum bekerja mahupun berkahwin. dengan adanya bukti kuantitatif sebegini, siapa sahaja tidak bisa menangkal ketuaan diriku. well, to think about it, at this age, i shouldnt have received any. am i the only one thinking that i'm old? do others not thinking the same? ufth, there goes my i'm-getting-old syndrome.
 
well, fact #2, haritu ada beberapa orang kawan adik aku datang beraya. and as the person in charge (parents out leaving me the power), i acted exactly as makcik makcik. keluar masuk dapur. bercakap dalam tone suara paling keibuan. seronok juga jadi tua ni. dan dalam lingkungan kanak kanak tersebut, aku cam seorang budak ni. bekas anak murid aku masa aku tolong ustaz aku ajar mengaji dulu. ha, aku pernah jadi ustazah, dan juga cikgu tuisyen, jangan main main. haha. dulu, kecik je budak tu aku rasa. sekarang, dah tinggi. dan aku terasa sangat tua.
 
i am 23. and i do feel old.
 
time do flies, and you will never realise. how a boy turns into a man. and how a girl turns into a woman. in a blink of eye, everything changes.
 
and lately, i feel like shouting to everyone i met that i am old. thats how the i'm-getting-old syndrome gone bad in me. sigh.

time do flies fast. value it much.



and i do not like how time flies fast.
 
 
p/s : i braided my hair, both left and right side. and all i got is a laugh from my lil bro. he said, what are you, sis? are you 18? *facepalm*

Saturday, August 18, 2012

selamat hali laya


kuih raya olimpik
dari atas :  acara terjun papan anjal, lari 1x100m, pingat emas, gadis cun, lari berpagar dan renang

Maka di sini, 

Salam Aidilfitri buat semua pembaca farrakaka. (which means, only me, literally)
Mohon maaf dari hujung rambut hingga hujung kaki.

Tulus ikhlas dari,
Farrakaka dan bakal suami.

^,^
eung eung

Thursday, August 9, 2012

He knows best

At times,life gives us presents that make our hearts flutter,and makes sure that when we experience pain,it exchanges with happiness - life's counterattack.



the list had come out. the name is there. but the person still, feeling insecure.

everything could happen. everything, be it good, or bad. life is something you can't be inattentive to. and i am imagining things. which is not good.

shooh. shooh. go away. do not invade my brain.


weird things, how i could not smile in reaction of good news. and how i could laugh easily, in accepting a really stupid bad news.

am i not a human?

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

mindset



Our psychological state allows us to see only what we want/need/feel to see at a particular time. What are the first three words that you see?


again, people. mindset. it's all about mindset.

credit : psych-facts

Friday, August 3, 2012

dejavu di hati kaku


Last year, time result keluar, emel sampai, satu gagal, pada ketika itu juga aku sedang demam.

Dan harini, time result keluar, emel aku buka, gagal kuasa dua dan aku masih juga demam.

Apa yang aku alami sekarang ini adalah dejavu. dejavu di hati kaku, tajuk cerita ini, sebab ia cerita aku.

I shouldn't have got the mood to update the blog but this is the only way i speak, literally. ya, aku sebenarnya dah jarang sangat membuka mulut, sehinggakan rahang aku mulai sakit akibat gigi yg terkatup terlalu ketat.

Dah selalu sangat aku gagal, maka aku dah imun. result k.o., tapi aku masih ok. itu normal. kadang aku terfikir, did i took this thing too coolly? did i took this thing too lightly? or did i took this thing too positively?

I guess they are all blended.

Or maybe i just happened to have nothing to feel. no feel no more. geez, where did my soul goes?

Apparently, somewhere myself doesn't know, and doesn't even bother to search.

But to tell the truth, to be like me, like-hey-it's-nothing-and-i-am-cool-like-this, there's a story behind it. and the story isn't a brag, its not even something to be proud of, but i do personally think that its not something to be ashamed of as well.

I do regret. but things happened. and i threw away those regret and sadness. and learned another way to redeem myself. there'll always be second chances, or in my case, up to third chances. so, regretting would be of no use. changing of plan would first be thought of. though i always fail to plan.

That would be the secret, #1.

But the devastated feeling of turning others down would always be felt. the parent, i speak of. and this morning, at times where i would always be found sleeping, i was awake, to the oppose. couldn't sleep though i tried to. and yes, it was because of the shock. the predictable shock i would say, but still, overwhelm took over me, a bit. and that was because i kept those feelings by myself. i thought i was strong enough to hold still, but i was afraid to present them with the failure. what am i going to tell?

So i thought, i should spill. maybe then i would feel better. maybe then i could sleep. thats more important.

And then i spill. with shaking voice, with pressure, and with full of thoughts, would they be able to take it cool, as i do?

Surprisingly, they took it cool. too cool that it loosen me up. and now i knew where do those traits in me came from. and a few minutes later, i was back on my bed, sleeping soundly. yeah, that's me.

I don't know how we ended up being too cool. it was awful, yet how did we can still react like nothing happened? like it wasn't a big deal? yo, it was a big deal. i am graduating but i got stuck with two papers, while all of my friends have already secured their places in uitm 77th convocation, yet i'm still here, got nowhere to go, and feeling insecured, but trying to act cool.

But i guess the feelings are there. the disappointment. the frustration. just that we know really well how to control, for not letting it all out, just to keep holding on, and that, is to make sure the other party doesn't feel too devastated. yes, the only way to make others happy, is to be happy. to show true happiness so that it can took over the sadness. guess that was what we felt. for sure it was what i felt, but the other party, i can't really tell.

Still, glad enough to feel that there are people who will always stand beside me. even though i betrayed them. but its their strength and support that makes me feel strong.

And that's the biggest reason. ultimate secret ingredient of being me.

I am selfish. it will always be a fact that i do not even care about myself, but i missed out the fact that there are people who care, which i should have thought of for me to have the consideration to take a good care of myself. my apology, for not loving myself, that it eventually affected others.

And yes, i'll take the challenge. if it's meant to be, it will be. life should go straight. no turning back. should there any obstacle and you stumble, stand up once again and go to the jungle. okay, i just wanna make it rhyme. couldn't think of another ryhming words, so, stand up once again and soar.

Even though it will take some (or a lot of) time, and you are not a wonder woman who heals fast.

p/s : ironiknya, aku bermula dengan bahasa melayu, tapi... ah, persetankan. aku lebih gemar berserius dalam bahasa inggeris. ia memberi rasa...serius.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

tidur

maka kiranya, memandangkan aku sudah kehilangan topik menarik untuk dibicarakan, adalah lebih elok aku membicarakan perkara yang aku suka, yakni tidur.

tiga hari lepas, tidur aku tak lena. kalih ke kanan, aku resah. kalih ke kiri, aku gundah. puas aku berangan, namun tak jalan.

esok malamnya juga sama. kalih ke kanan, aku mengeluh. kalih ke kiri, aku merengus. maka putusnya, aku mencari punca.

setelah disiasat, aku dapati corak tidurku dipengaruhi oleh bilangan bantal. ya, awal sangkaku, aku fikir aku mampu tidur dengan hanya beralaskan sebiji bantal, tapi bila bantal-bantalku diculik, tidur aku mula terganggu.

aku ini jenis orang yang tidur dengan bantal bantal yang banyak. literally, a lot. two below head. one on top. one to hug. one on both left and right side. in short, i built a fortress while i'm sleeping.

orang bilang, siapa siapa yang tidur dengan banyak bantal adalah orang yang insecure. membina kubu untuk rasa lebih selamat. perahsia dan tidak terbuka. orang bilang juga, siapa siapa yang tidur dengan satu bantal sahaja adalah orang yang confident. fleksibel dan rasional. dan juga, bilang orang, siapa siapa yang tidur tanpa bantal itu, orangnya tersangatlah miskin, tak mampu membeli hatta sebiji bantal buat tidur.

okay, the last part isn't funny.

ya, aku perahsia. dan kurang terbuka. mungkin bilang orang itu tepat. tapi, jangan terlalu percaya, cuma membandingkan saja.

maka, berbalik kepada cerita aku, setelah aku menculik kembali bantal bantal aku, tidurku tidak lagi terganggu.

dan membuatkan waktu terjagaku menginjak ke setelah tingginya matahari di atas kepala.



p/s : bayangkan kalau selepas kahwin nanti, apa agaknya kata suami aku kalau aku masih membina kubu di sekeliling? err...

Monday, July 30, 2012

what did i do during my free time

i have a lot of free time, i mean, currently, all of my time is free. while others spent their valuable time to go for job hunting or working, or training, these are what i did to kill those time.


#1. lying on my bed. youtubeing. interneting. downloading. tagging tagging. poking poking. flirting flirting. heh, thats not funny.

well, i have a very longggg list of blogs and webs that i always view, and keep on viewing the updates. that makes me couldn't even take my hands off of my kyushiba or q-ace. my bestfriend now, i could tell its the unifi. boo me.


#2. trying to clean the house. as the only sweet daughter of the house (as for now), i have got the feeling to take responsibility for the cleanliness and tidiness of the house.

but the feelings will be easily defeated by the awesomeness of unifi. but don't blame only me. believe me, it would take forever to get this house back on its acceptable view. it requires a lot of energy and determination, which i do not really have, apparently.


#3. trying to convert my imagination into the form of writing. well, i do have a lot of imagination, to the extend that it could be turned into a novel, or more. yeah, i love to daydream, enough said.

so i tried, and those pre-writing ended up to be a piece of s**t. and i gave up. bahah.

i'd stick to be a reader, not an author. thank you.


#4. being an anti-social. owh, i've said that on previous entry, so lets move to


#5. at last, i realized that sitting at home all day long is boring. so, when dija proposed me to accompany her and having a one-day walk in malacca, i agreed, despite the fact that i am broke.

and yesterday, was the day of me tanning myself after hiding from the sun for quite a long time.



pantai hopping and beach-view fast-breaking. awesome.


i love beach so much. i think i've said it a lot of time before. but i wanna said it again and again. the sound of wave, the view, the feeling when both of your feet touches the sand, barefooted, and the refreshing cool breeze, they are all awesome.

i wish i have a house built near beach. *daydreaming mode turned on*

okay, enough till here, before i'm getting deeper in daydream.

*waves hand*

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

wednesday rant

its already wednesday. and nope, this isn't wordless wednesday.

its been a week since i left uni life. and my one week life being an ex-uitm student, is me, being me. just me.

"a lone ranger who talks to herself, rant alone with herself and living in her own little world"

yeah, thats me.

and that is why i hate being separated with my buddies. coz i knew that things will turn like this. a place i called home is such a creepy place. it made me lazying around, doing nothing and withdrawing from the society. doesnt even bother to feel the sun or breathe the fresh outdoor air.

and i'm telling you a secret, because this were foreseeable, that is why i cracked during the tearjerking goodbye session in the rain a week ago. yeah, a goodbye, in the rain, with tears. dramatic enough, huh? i wouldnt forget that moment, ever. its true that the goodbye is just temporary, we'll still have time to meet up, to catch up someday but it'll never be the same. never be the same with what we have gone through for four years, together. later, we'll be busy with our own life, chasing our own dreams, and only time, will tell.

life is adventurous, isnt it? but i ain't gonna need a time machine. going back to the past doubling the hardest part you have faced. and travelling to the future skips the sweetest moment that you could have enjoyed. thus, people, we aint gonna need a time machine.

and well, i guess i will just keep myself in mystery. thats the adventure in me.


p/s : but i hope to see myself being a regular blog-writer back. i mean, i have abandoned my lovely farrakaka for quite a long time, so, maybe its time for recharging.

Friday, July 6, 2012

too cool

last week, before entering the exam hall, a friend of mine who was so nervous told me that i am cool. she kept questioning why do i look so in relax mode even before final exam.

cool? define cool.

and past two days, my roomate who was also nervously studying for her killing paper, asked a question "boleh tak aku nak berpoya poya tengok laptop kejap?"

and i answered, "don't refrain yourself. just do whatever you wish."


that is cool. too cool i guess.


kenyataannya, aku masih rasa nervous, di mana mana saja. tapi aku suka berlagak cool. dan mungkin bijak berlagak cool. but one thing for sure, i will never refrain myself from doing everything that i like. even though it is not in the right time.

just like how i spent 3 days at home doing nothing, lazying around and screwing myself when i know i should have studied for another 4 final exam papers that awaits me.


that is way too crazy not too cool.


 p/s : aku juga melatah macam nenek nenek kalau ada barang jatuh. maka, aku bukanlah seorang yang cool.

Friday, June 29, 2012

me, being sentimental

just wanna blog about it. the first final exam paper i took yesterday.

the first feeling i got on the final examination of my degree. my very last examination in uitm. the feeling when you feel u have studied enough (in my case, just enough for me to pass) and the feeling when you read those questions, and you know what you should answer. the feeling when you dont have enough time to answer (or maybe just enough time, on the dot), and that is because you continuosly writing whatever you feel you should write, not because you waste your time daydreaming, observing people, or going to toilet. the feeling when you submit your paper, with satisfaction, and a smile (a bitter smile though).


i got the feel. and i hope the feeling lasts, for another 17 days, at least.


to tell you the truth, i havent feel those feelings for quite a long time. be it the last exam i sat approximately one year ago, and neither on those test papers i've sat throughout this final sem. i just lost my soul somewhere all this while.

thank god, i found it again, in the very last minute, of coz.


but i still got many big troubles in studying. *sigh*

oh, and not forgetting, that feeling when you eliminating those notes that are no more needed in your university life. farewell. hope not to see you again. teehee.


p/s : condolences to my brother's dream of entering the final showdown. just not the time yet. but still, congratulations on being the top 5 crew in 2012.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

random



si budak pendek. but apparently he's taller than me now. and he is anas a.k.a. kechik (and i always wanna boo him for that nickname). but we called him apiq.

thats all, fyi.

kekekeke.

* in study mood. final exam just around the corner. and good luck for the kids, may u guys gonna make it to the finals too.

Friday, June 1, 2012

taking advantage



ambil kesempatan. wow.



p/s : apa guna ada adik famous kalau tak tumpang glemer. kahkahkah.

random rant

kalau ada orang tanya apa rasa aku sekarang, aku akan jawab camni :

rasa nak tidur je. pastu bangun bangun je dah terus habis belajar.
atau bangun bangun je dah terus dapat kerja.
baik aku mintak bangun bangun je dah terus atas pelamin.
atau bangun bangun je dah terus dapat anak kembar sepasang.
dan mungkin lebih baik kalau bangun bangun je dah pencen dan sedang berehat menikmati hari tua.


tapi serius, aku betul betul rasa nak tidur je.



 
kan seronok kalau bangun bangun je boleh terus dapat apa yang kita nak. tanpa perlu bersusah payah bagai.

tapi kau rugi lah nanti. sebab kau dah skip banyak proses. kau dah skip proses pembelajaran kau, zaman kerja kau, kisah cinta kau, dan hidup kau.

seolah olah kau cuma hidup sehari dan mati keesokan harinya.
kosong.

 
p/s : aku mungkin patut tidur sekarang. walau aku tau bangun bangun nanti aku tetap akan menghadapi hari yang sama. hari yang penuh keluhan semata. walau aku berharap sangat aku mampu melangkau masa dan cuma menjejak waktu gembira sahaja. walau aku tau itu mustahil.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

walawei crew showdown 2012

Type

SD WLW

or

SD5 WLW

and send to 33399



to tell you the truth, one of them is my lil brother. and as a sister, i have an urge to promote them.
so, do vote them, as you please. thank you very much.


kekekekeke.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

new kids on farrakaka's block

I bought a new device.



and i named it Kyunon.


giving name to my assets is a tradition. i've got Kyushiba, Q-ace, Q-disk, and Kyuhyun. ok, not the last one.

and i don't know, is it just me, or did shopping for gadgets is easier than shopping for clothes. coz i spent less than 1 hour buying this thing (plus a new cooling pad for kyushiba) but i barely can buy a new shirt even when i have finished travelling the whole shopping complex, floor by floor.


i think it's just me.


p/s : i dont really like the new blogger.com. first facebook, and now, blogger. whats next?

Saturday, April 7, 2012

blue

I’m neither painful nor lonely
Happiness is all self-talk
I can’t stand something more complicated
It’s no big deal, i don’t care
Inevitable wandering, people come and go

Big Bang T.O.P, Blue.


mungkin seorang dia tiada rasa bertanda
mungkin seorang dia emosi pada tak sepatutnya
mungkin semua itu alasan cuma
tapi hanya Tuhan yang tahu,
apa yang terbuku di dada
kerna kalau ditanya, masih tiada jawabannya.

Farrakaka, Biru



*nak beri kaki, silalah. hew hew hew.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Malaysian Soft Skills Scale

I just answered a questionnaire by KPTM a.k.a MOHE, consists of 200 questions. 200. 200!

It tests on my level of soft skills. and guess what, the report is as below.




pheww, overall report is unfavourable. Tidak Mencapai Tahap. in other words, i failed. FAILED.

do i need to repeat this paper too?

* i am aware of my low level of soft skills. guess i haven't done much to improve myself on that. and with the above kind of result, a scary thought slipped my mind. will i ever survive in this corporate (kinda) of world i've chosen? but who cares? the future's not us to see. que sera sera.

and it's just a questionnaire. who answers a questionnaire (of 200) in full heart?

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Welcome back, student

A week has passed since the first day of new sem. And i'm officially a part 8 student. Final year. Super senior. Taiko. Otai. (ok, enough. They got ur point).


A week has passed but I am still in the middle of adapting. Trying to blend in. (as the matter of fact, i'm still in denial mode, not accepting the fact that I have to be a student, back). Duh, why is it so hard?


So I figure out that i've to do something. Though some matters still haven't settled down yet, I made a promise to myself, that by the end of this first week, I will make myself a student. A normal student.


And as for my observation, a normal student means :

#1. wake up for classes, sleep whenever appropriate at leisure

#2. google is ur bestfriend

#3. study if and only if the mood has come

#4. do assignment if and only if the mood has come

#5. last minute work is a must


For me, point #3 and #4 are unsurprisingly impossible, which then lead to point #5.


Welcome back, student life. (i miss pwc very much. I miss using my brain only from 8.30 am to 5.30 pm. tsk tsk)


stop whining.


Oh, whining also is a student's bestfriend, so its okay to whine, sometimes.


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Thursday, March 8, 2012

karam aku di lautan duka

just a short update. i know it's 2 am already, and i've to wake up early in the morn to travel back to shah alam. and yes, i'm at bt caves currently.


life's being rough to me these days. too rough. too many things to settle down yet is seems like the time is hating me much, by being uncooperative. i blamed the time, and i cursed myself for being in the middle of this time.

if you don't get what i mean, i'll give you a hint. say, you're a graduating student, and you've imagine that everything will went smooth just like prior semesters, but it happened to be at this moment that all the systems and policies have just undergone a very huge changes, and you've becoming the victim. oh, and that's a very big hint.


i'm going down, down, and down.


and drowned.



p/s : hidup aku terumbang ambing umpama sampan terolang aling di laut china selatan. sudahlah sesat dihanyutkan ombak, ditimpa hujan lebat pula. siapa kata malang tidak mungkin bertimpa timpa?

Thursday, March 1, 2012

tribute to CAS

sometimes, time seems like creeping slowly. and sometimes too, it feels like running fast. and i've never imagine that my internship has finally ended, yesterday.

for 9 months of experience i've gained from the department, for lots of love i've received, and for everything, i would like to thank each and every one in the team. may we meet again, some other time.





a piece of memory that would ever be forgotten.


farewell.


*not forgetting, thank you, pwc.